I am back after disappearing for a couple of days. I was busy with school work and accompanying my honey. =D
He just went back today and I know I will miss him terribly. He arrived on next Friday and was supposed to return yesterday. But he extended a night because we can’t bear to leave each other! Haha. I really feel empty returning to this room alone, without seeing him and having his arms by my side to hold on when I sleep. I can only see him 15 days later when I am back to SG.
My overseas working trip really make us realise our importance to each other. Frankly speaking, we have not experience not seeing each other for more than a month. Not even the time when we broke off a year ago. Even when we were seperated that time, we still managed to meet each other at least once fortnightly.
We had fun time in HK. We went shopping then pubbing on Saturday and Disneyland on Sunday. Monday night he stayed in the hotel the whole evening with me to accompany to study because I had a test today. I am so grateful to him because he is very understanding, knowing that this trip for him is just to see me and not treating it like his holiday. He gave me some sweet surprises which I thought he never will do. (because he is a unromantic person, haha).
After he touched down, he told me that he bought something for me. I don’t have any idea what is it at that time because I never thought he will buy something that I like for me. Haha. He took out the present and it was a digital camera that I had been eyeing before coming to HK! I didnt want to buy it at that time because I think the price is too steep and I don’t want to spend unnecessary $ at that time. He said that he dont want me to feel akaward when all my classmates have a camera and I am using my phone camera. =D
Surprise no 2: He bought a rose for me when we were at a club. I am touched because he is someone who never buy me any flowers (maybe once in a blue moon during V day or Bdae)
Surprise no 3: Yesterday he went out to walk alone and he came back in the evening after my class ends. He return with a big Garfield. Keke. He said he wants me to hug it when he is not around by my side.
Actually, the things that he bought is not the main reasons that I am happy. I would say that the sincerity from him melts my heart. I love the way he pamper me and surprise me. Love him so much!
Fuji Z100 in my favourite hot pink
Ok, enough of the mushy moments with honey. The photos of our outings will be up soon once I have resized all the photos.
Another emotional moments with my friends. On our Saturday lesson, we were taught on how to write and receive a feedback. Therefore, there was a heart to heart session with my classmates. Of cause, being the closest together in class, Juv, Joyce and me grouped ourselves together in a team. What we have to do was to write a letter in a heart shape paper and tell the other party about our feelings towards them. The main thing is that we have to be honest on how we feel about each other. This was the most difficult part. I just knew them for a month and I have to be frank on my feelings towards them. I do have some opinions and thinking about them, but am i really going to tell everything straight to them?
After much consideration, 3 of us decided to open our heart to give the most truthful comments about each other. Then the both of them look at each other and said that they might write the same thing about me. I was feeling not really alright because it seems like I have really bad things for them to say about me.
Before they started the session. Joyce told me that she might feel abit emotional and was afraid that she will drop her tears while reading the letter to me. I was puzzled! I didnt know it can be so emotional until when she finished reading her letter to me. She had some tears at her corner of her eyes, so does Juv. Upon seeing their expressions, I teared abit. Not only it was touching, i really feel that I was much appreciated by them.
Her letter and conversation to me goes like this:
Phyllis, I am really glad to meet u as a friend because u are someone who are very caring and understanding. You never fail to bring smile to our face and I love your company alot. However, I feel that your laziness is hindering you to be a better person. Everytime, I try to motivate you to go out and join our group but you are too lazy to go. If this will to change, it will be good because you really make use of your time here in this flying career of yours. When you think back after you left this place, you will feel that you have not miss or waste your time during your flying career.
I was astonished by the content of the letter. I rejected them quite a few times after school about going out with them. I explained to them after the session and tell them that I wanted to have more time with talking to my boyfriend, friends and family after I got back to my room. For me, I feel that after staying a long day in school, I need some time to talk to my friends so as not to have the connection broken. But, I misintepreted it to them as being: Oh, i am too lazy to go out. I was sorry for the excuse that I had made out to them. I was not lazy, but rather i want to talk to my friends when i am back to the hotel.
She understand that and said that she just want the best out of me and didnt want me to regret the time that was spent in HK. I respected her as my elder sister as a friend whom I can talk everytime with.
Then Juv began her session with me.
Phyllis, you are sweet and caring. Absolutely humorous. Just like a sister to me. Level of comfort while talking to you is really high. =p But at times, I feel that you should join our outings more often, be more confident of yourself and smk less. (lol)
Eh.. ok. I like the content of this letter. Haha. We both know we enjoyed each other company so much because there seems to be endless laughter.
My turn now to give them my opinions.
To Joyce: You are a very confident person and I see you as a role model and a motivator for me. But sometimes, confident can be turned to arrogant. To be frank, I once thought that you are cocky, arrogant, proud and doesnt think of others at time. But as time pass by, I feel that you have no ill intentions and you are not someone who will harm others. This is your character to be unfriendly at times (my perception) and I really hope to see more smile from you as you look really fierce without that smile. I thought that I can never accept your above flaws but after i sat down and look back at the time when we helped each other to get through all the obstacles, the fun that we had etc, I know that in order to keep u as a friend, I have to accept the character that you have. This is the best way to keep a friend and I know i want to keep u as my friend.
She was touched to hear this. I mean, me too because I have to agree that few weeks back, I was pissed off whatever little things she did because every single actions to me show arrogant. But i think back and i knew that not everybody have the same character. The most important thing is that she has no harm and ill intentions to anyone of us, why should I refrain myself away from her? She explained to me that this is not the first time she heard from people and further explained that what i said was right. If i dont know her well enough, or unwilling to give her time to prove that she is harmless, she would have lost me as a close friend.
My session to Juv:
Seriously, I got nothing much to say about you because you are just so nice! (so far that i know, haha) We shared the same topic, the same interest and you are just someone so nice to talk to. I really love your company! So much laughter and nonsense from both of us and that was something to make my life here merrier instead of staring at the boring lecture.
Both girls drew something nice in my letter. A picture of the 3 of us holding hands together from Joyce letter to me. A ‘I Still Love Ya’ in the letter from Juv. These are the things that will never be in the bins because it will meant alot for us.
I really appreciate this feedback session that my trainer created as it certainly make our bond better. Joyce seems to be more friendlier in her facial expressions nowadays and I just went out with them to have my dinner. Don’t want to always cope myself in the room facing my msn and handphone. keke. I knew that there are the friends who are worth to keep because in this foreign land, we gave each other our fullest support and care. We all agree that we will miss each other after the training ends but we promised that we will still keep in contact even if each of us go our own way.
Training will end in another 5 days and there will be no more tests and nerve wrecking moments. But to embark on a much challenging career will be something new. Fellow CC will understand what I am trying to say here. In the meantime, 2 more practical tests for us! Just cleared my English Interaction practical test this afternoon using our service language. I seriously hate the service language! It makes me sound so weird and remembering all the approriate language to use is not easy.
Typhoon is coming soon. There is Typhoon No.3 now and I hope tommorow morning will turn to Typhoon No. 8 so that there will be no class. Haha, I am so bad but i really need a rest because I didnt catch enough rest for the past 1 week.
Counting down …. 5 more days!!!
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