this is for you, my dearest…..

 

Last Saturday was a day that Jason and I barely made it. It was my first time throughout the 6 months relationship to call off the love.

It was also the day when I gave my most sincere pour out to him. I thought that we can just forgo each other easily but I underestimated the bond in between us.

When my heart was fighting between a ‘yes’ &  a ‘no’ fiercely, the sentence  “I really do love you” displayed in my phone came in as an enlightenment.

 I capitulated.

It is just this one sentence that I think I should give my decision a thought. Nobody will know how strong that sentence was; unless you know Jason well in person.

And so, we didn’t really want to forsake this relationship.

We came by not easy. We had the most abnormal roller coaster relationship. I am amazed by the strength that we had for each other to keep this relationship ongoing even of the hiccups we encountered. I didn’t give up on him all these while even the silliest thing on earth happened.

I know there are many times he can make his choice to choose and leave because I see that the grass on the other side is greener.

BUT

He still choose to make me stay with him, and he with me.

I appreciate all the promises that he had upkeep so far, as well as the after efforts being put in. 

As what I have mentioned to him before, it is a new start of our promising relationship with just each other in our hearts.

After the obstacles that we had stormed through, we appreciated each other more, this I believe. 

From today onwards, without any glitches, with the love that he have for me, the passion I have for him, I will smile and walk this path of love, free-heartedly and hand in hand together with him.

 

 

I will learn to love you, my imperfect boyfriend perfectly.

 

 

 

 

 

p/s: On the other hand, last week, there was also a day that I dropped something and shall not pick it up again. I told myself that since I have lost it, I shouldn’t be finding it anymore. It is high time that I wake up and I am glad that I did at this present moment.

Daegan’s birthday party & random updates!

Last Friday was Daegan’s birthday. We went to Le Bar before heading down to DF!

Before that, Owen & Dear prepared steamboat at home and we had a rush but good dinner.

The night before, I had MJ session with FM, Kesper, Louis, Ivy+ JW at FM’s house. All the way till wee morning and I went home to sleep before going back to Jason’s place.

We had a total of 4 rounds of MJ and the morning ended with breakfast, Kes’s treat because he is the big winner!

Daegan’s birthday party @ Le Bar, 20th November

*photo credits to Elvin*

What a cute birthday cake, a hamburger! LOL!

The Sweetest Couple

HAHA I like this photo. =)

Brothers!

Champagne Popping!

Brenden, Jason, Daegan & Elvin

We went to DF at 3-ish and I was really slightly tipsy after rounds of drinks. My luck sucks when playing games.

Saw many friends in DF and was practically running around.

Gina saw me and grab me for a photo. =)

Fei.

Gina’s friend

That is all for the night!

I almost vomited but I endured! I confess I am not really a good drinker nowadays, maybe I don’t club and drink as frequent as last time.

 

Let me be random with 2 added photos found in my handphone ;

This was taken one of the days in DF

At Jason’s place before heading out one of the Friday to meet the girlies.

 

And now, I am kinda bored. Well, not actually because there are many things for me to do at home. Playing either PS3 or L4D2 is my good way of killing time now. I am on long leave till 30th Nov, therefore I “rot” alot at Jason’s place these days!

He is out now playing soccer and I think I should do something else first before continuing to play my games.

I went snapping around his room. HAHA, not camwhoring myself because I am freaking ugly now. I took photos of his new added loves to his room.

Entertainment Corner No. 1 - New TV he bought (32″). Alongside is his PS3 that he bought last week. Below the TV is a new DVD player that he bought weeks ago after getting his TV. He sounded very nice by saying the DVD player is for me because he knows I always watch DVD. Okie la, I try to somehow believe la, LOL!  He ranted that he shouldn’t have bought the DVD player if he knows he is going to buy PS3 because PS3 can play DVDs too! No choice, too bad, too late! LOL!

Entertainment Corner No. 2 - His computer because I use it to play L4D2. Beside his com is my laptop but I always use the laptop on the bed because I got lazy bones, not too much on his table.

Entertainment Corner No. 3 - His big BED that can sleep at least 4 person I think. LOL! I can sleep/ laze the whole day comfortably. =)

His only 2 PS3 games at the moment. Winning Eleven 2010 for himself and Dynasty Warriors is for me!

L4D 2!! Quite hard to play I feel, gives me headache. The zombies increase and also they seems like moving faster eh?

Jason’s new LV sling bag. Not exactly new lah, he had this for around 1 month plus already. Olivia helped him to get in Paris through her crew mate.  She got it for him at $1180 instead of the usual price, $1280. Although only $100 difference but still it is a saving! Thanks to Oli!

This is ME now, in my leopard’s print cotton on boxer and oversize T-shirt. Don’t look at the face, it sucks. My damn dark eye rings and pimples infested face!

Sheesh, I am hungry now. I shall await for supper and for Jason to be back first. Should I order something? Or should we go out to eat? Or should I ask him to buy something back?

Damn, I shouldn’t even be thinking about the ‘ SHOULD I’ because …………………………..

 

supper makes me fat!!

BUT WHO CARES NOW?

A HUNGRY MAN IS AN ANGRY MAN.

LOL!

 

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L4D Craze & James birthday celebration

 

I am on a L4D craze recently.

I have been longing to play this online game for a long time and finally did so on a Sunday night last week!

We were actually chilling at Mr Bean and I happened to walk past ‘Home Ground’ lan shop and told Jason.

We decided to try it out and got hooked.

From Sunday to Tuesday, I have been playing it too much!

Tuesday was crazy, I played for straight 6 hours!

I am always fascinated by zombies. I love to watch zombies type of movies and this definetly is my type of game. Killing the zombies brought me a great sense of satisfaction. Sadist I may sound but it is true. LOL!

Casts of the game. Needless to say, I always chose Zoey as my character, the only female in the game.

I completed all the campaign in 3 days. The first day we totally suck at it. Kept on got ‘rape’ by the zombies and stuck in the finale. The second day we completed 1 campaign and the 3rd day, we completed all! No choice, we are all newbies la. HAHA.

I personally like it even more than CounterStrike. And now L4D 2 is out. We have yet to try but Jason just bought the game online, along with PS3. He spent a total of $600 for everything to be delieverd to him. Right, now we have new hobby to do at home!

Apart from constantly playing L4D, the activities for the past week included the following, apart from sleeping, eating and rotting alot at home. LOL

14th November, Saturday

Jason came to fetch me and we went to his soccer friend’s birthday party at Capella, Sentosa. You can call me a mountain turtle but I have to admit that I am charmed by the Villa there! It is just soooo goddddddd damnnnnnn nice!!!

Before that, we had buffet dinner in the ballroom.

Nice dining table setting

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Dennis, Amos, Brenden, James (bdae boy), Daegan, Elvin & Owen

Afterwhich, the buggy ride took us to the Villa.

Some photos taken from Facebook, tagged by Pauline and Elvin.

The many pairs of shoes dictate how many people were present

And the interior and exterior of the Villa.. (courtesy of Pauline)

I soooo want to jump into the pool !!

For me, I have nothing much to do except for lazing around near the pool side sofa and chatting with people.  

WAG ( A term used to describe the wife and girlfriend’s of soccer players. LOL)

Daegan, Elvin, Jason & Owen

Gambling Den

Don’t know when I got snapped!

My Love!

And…

We EAT AGAIN! Steamboat+Teppanyaki

 

The Guys took turn to play PS3

BeeDae Cake in US Dollars! LOL~

Birthday boy cutting cake!

The guys present for the night

We ended the night at DF. =D

 

I have many distractions while doing up this post and it took me 2 days to finish it! It is already 6.30am and I am going to bed after a night of game with Jason. Dynasty Warriors is still my favourite game after years and it was my first time playing it on PS3. Have to thanks dear for buying this game for me. *smoochies*

Shall blog again real soon!

Night World!

 

 

the perfect wednesday

 

Is to catch a much awaited movie with 8 other random people.

Out of which includes BFFs Karin Toh & Kimmy Char.

7.15 pm later at Cineleisure. Say hello if you run into us. HAHA!

Miss Karin Toh, please do not eat fried chicken beside me when watching this show, I am sure you will be ditch into that little creepy corner seat right at the far end of the cinema, all by yourself. MUHAHAHAHA

Will be heading back to Jason’s place after that to have dinner with him.

Couldn’t really bear to abandon dear boyfriend for long because I do care for his well-being if I am not around.

Speaking of which, I have not been home to sleep since last week.

=p

 

And what the hell! I am suffering from slight flu now that I am sneezing nonstop with free flow mucus.

=(

I am dozing off, it’s coffee time!!

 

 

 

 

p/s: We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Bffs Outing is Much Loved~

Met up with BFFs last night.

At a location which I wouldn’t want to imagine I am at if let’s say I am home

Tampines Mall!

I used to complain pretty much about my good friends who all reside in the East and sometimes meeting up is quite a hassle because I will usually whine and demand that I won’t go any further than Central. HAHA.

And now, I am such a frequent traveller to Tampines Mall, resorting Kim calling me Tampines-Bu. (wah, this name super LC + lian lor)

So, it is not a bad idea to find a boyfriend who stays far from you, as long as there is one added point that he stays near to your BFFs!

Okie, so I really don’t know when was the last time 4 of us meet up together. I think it was during my birthday?

Had dinner at Kim Gary! My first time there. The food is not too bad!

Our food (lazy me steal this picture from Miss Vivi’s webby! =p)

After our dinner, we wanted to go chill at Starbucks/ Coffeebean but there were too many people. We ended up chilling at Hans. Not a very good choice for chilling but we don’t have much alternatives!

Taken from Miss Vivi’s camera :

Her $4.50 rootbeer float. Toh & I had coffee-float which look the same. I think their cup can look better! This look like those cup that is from Kopitiam.

Vivian & Kim!

Me & Karin

Taken using my camera:

 

We had a good bitching session. HAHA, not speaking ill of people lah but some hard facts that were discussed on certain people.

Jason came to fetch me at around 12am. Went home and watched TV plus Tweet alittle bit with Vivian and Karin before I call it a day.

Today is boring Monday again. Pain ass that we have to wait for 5 days for the next weekend.

Overall I love BFFs session like this. Can we have more?!

 

Side track abit off the topic. I think I might as well post the rest of the photos in the same post.

Saturday, we went to Brenden’s birthday celebration at Melody Pub. Before that, Jason and I had late night dinner at a more atas Burger King in Clarke Quay, Whopper Bar!

Couldn’t decide what to eat at first after walking along the stretch of Clarke Quay. I suggested this place because it is easy la, didn’t want to spend too much time to look for other food. Moreover, I was drawn to the pretty layout of the restaurant.

I had my usual favourite from Burger King, Mushroom Swiss Meal and Jason had the Turkey and Bacon Burger Meal. I particularly love mine because the burger taste better with crunchy firm burger bread and good portion of mushroom. Jason didn’t like his burger too much because he said that it was a tad too drying. The burger is hot too because I think they make each burger on the spot after ordering. Not like the usual fast food restaurant whereby they will make some and leave it there even before the order comes.

It was quite worth it although the price is $3-$4 more expensive than the common Burger King.

Left to Melody after dinner and it is

Happy Birthday Brenden!

Brenden and Isabelle. (Very random and sudden, I was the matchmaker, LOL)

Jason & I

For the whole night, we sat there listening to people singing. Mostly from birthday boy and friends. I drank alittle bit, got entertained by Jason’s rubber band trick and also chatted with Owen for quite awhile.

To Dragonfly after that.

Jac came down and meet us

 

Saw a few friends:

Silver. Whats with her pose? HAHA

Us with Silver and Crystal

Poor Wuming!

Kaixun & Yoga

 

 

 

p/s: Immature love says: ‘I love you because I need you.’ Mature love says ‘I need you because I love you.’

So, what is your kind of love?

update of f-o-t-o-s!

 

Not a very good way to start the morning when Jairia broke the news to me.

We are in the same cubicle for more than half an hour. I don’t know how to console her, I can only lend her my listening ears. I can understand and feel for her and she asked me 1 question:

” I don’t know how you can overcome it that time, I feel so lost, so down. Mine is only half of what you have been through that time yet I am already feeling this way….”

Sigh, another heart-breaking matter.

L-O-V-E ah!! Stop torturing people!

 

I am relatively happy that I can have full possesion of daddy’s car for 5 days! (yes, Genting trip again)

Actually it is only 4 days…because I was at Jason’s place on Sunday so I did not go home to get my car.

I have some backdated photos here.

16th October, Friday

when Ah Toh & I met up for movie -

Darah!

Bloody movie which make us so stress watching it but we enjoyed it so much. HAHA.

On the Bus

In the Cinema

Went to DF after that.

At Lobby Bar

 25th October, Saturday

Went town with Jason to walk around then had dinner. Head home to prepare and to DF.

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I kinda like this photo.. the lighting is not bad.

 28th October, Wednesday

Toh MaMa gave us a treat to Tung Lok Seafood Buffet! I was on leave and so Jason send me over to ECP to meet the girls for this delightful din din!

I ate so much until I feel so sleepy and don’t feel like moving my butt. The food is good except for the chilli crabs.

Photos taken from Char’s blog! (sorry ah, lazy to collate. =p)

My favourite will be the Shark Fin. Awesomely good!

Dessert is always my love……especially seeing so many of them!

Toh Mama is so happy that she Twisted!

Another photo from my camera

Super act I know. HAHA

Oh can you spot the gigantic pimple? D.A.M.N!

Group photo before leaving!

Went to ECP Mac and chill with my 2 girlies until 12 plus when Jason came to send all of us home.

29th October, Thursday

I was on leave for Thursday and Friday as well. Woke up very late, think 4pm. Jason went to workshop and I went Tampines Mall for shopping and Mani & Pedi session. Came home at 9lus for dinner. He went for soccer and I went drinking together with FM & Co.

Brought Jac along with me!

On the Cab.

Owen Tan is really muddle-headed. He went soccer without bringing his boots! (It is like going swimming without bringing swimming trunks). I accompanied Jac to deliver his soccer boots to him at the Cage first before making our way to Boat Quay.

SC was the first to reach. FM came shortly and we are clueless about which pub to go at first. Wanted to try new place therefore we saw that Chamber 82 has got nice ambience. We went there!

Really nice deco. The wall is in pink. I like~ Hee

She is a nurse in daytime and a teacher at night. LOL

Kesper and Louis joined as soon as we reached. Just as I thought it should be a chill out session, we indulge in heavy drinking again. What’s new with people like them who place high stake in games? Drank many glasses of ‘TEH O’ (super gao Martell). 6 people 2 bottles of Martell! GOSH!

But the second bottle still left with 1/3 I think.

SC & Kesper. As if so shy to take photo~

No photo man – Mr SFM

Yes Louis? Feel like puking? HAHA

That’s the way – smile at my camera!

Kesper & Jac

I didn’t take any photos anymore because I looked so ugly after drinking. A legend was created after that night. Many stunts from dear friend and I think I am the only one who get to see it always.

Had a serious tiff with Jason went I got home. Totally lost it.

But we make up the next day.

 BAH~

30th October, Friday

Went home to take my stuff first since Jason is busy working. Came back to find him at night. Watched Death Note and went coffee with Owen at Parkway Parade MacDonalds. Actually wanted to go play L4D but not sure where to play at that hour. Didn’t really sleep well, maybe had too much coffee. =(

31st October, Saturday

Woke up quite early at 12plus. Watched TV and Jason said he wanted to eat Ding Tai Fung. So off we went to Tampines Mall. After eating, we walked around for awhile and I accompanied him to Sin Ming Drive workshop to collect his car. Went back to his house with him driving his Airwave and me driving his Dad’s car. And it was such a heavy downpour that I got scared by the lightning a few times. -_-”.  

At night, I went to FM’s place for MJ with Toh & Kesper. FM is an idiot and has been so irritating that recently he put in his MSN saying: ” Carrot waiting to be chopped. Any choppers? ” I am that carrot that he is referring to la!

I lost almost $100 at first but recouped my losses after the 2nd round. In the end, it was a no-win no lose! Toh is the big “winner” with $80 damage. Hee. Chopper is FM la, won her $80. MERCILESS.

Overall, a good and fun mahjong session because of the joke that was created over the table. Sometimes I think my ability of talk cock-ness still remained as good as before when I thought that it deteriorates. Not until I meet these people again that I think my level is still regained. HOHO. 

Hurried down because Jason has been waiting downstairs for me for more an hour! He is already downstairs at 4am and I only finished my game at 5.15am. Gosh. Actually he went clubbing but in the end there are some hiccups so he came to fetch me earlier but didn’t tell me until 4.45am that he is already downstairs. Poor boyfriend been stood up and still need to wait for me for so long.

1st November, Sunday

Jason said he wanted to watch Poker King and he booked the tickets for 4.30pm. I woke up at only 2pm and we went to Tampines Mall (again, lol) for movie. Ehhh, read my twitter, I said it sucks. Indeed!

Can the plot be better and not so predictable???

Ate teppanyaki for lunch. Walked around again but this time round we went to Tampines One. Jason finally bought a his type of pull over top after I told him that it is not bad. Yes la, boyfriend not wearing same top anymore, HAHAHA! I like because is I chose one. LOL.

Bought some Japanese snacks, went home at around 9pm. Slacked, watched TV, napped and woke up for late dinner with Owen at 85.

  

That was my past week. Not too bad!

I am having insomnia lately.

Sheesh.

welcoming November!

 

It is finally November and I survived through shitty October.

I just want to quickly get past 2009.

I am not a superstitious person but I believe in jinx moments in life.

Sad to say, 2009 can be considered as my most jinx year throughout my life.

Nah, not exaggerating if you understand what I have been through from the beginning of the year till now.

It is a super down year for relationship and work related stuff.

Yeah, like the top 2 most important stuff in my life.

Anyway, last week was still alright.

It is not perfect but I wouldn’t consider it to be disastrous also.

 Hmm, just alittle grouchy at times, alittle being a too much thinker and alittle bit cranky.

A happier note is that I did almost everything. Drinking, Shopping, Coffee-ing, MJ-ing and Movie-ing

And… I didn’t go clubbing! Even for Halloween Night.

Sorry to say, it has never been my type of festival that I will be that spontaneous.

Call me a nerd or what but I don’t want to go out laugh at people and got laugh by people.

I mean there are still people who really will dress up wisely and nicely.

But it is just not a day I will celebrate la.

I have some photos for last week and will be updated real soon. Maybe like tomorrow? Hopefully!

In the mean time, share one part of today’s email with you.

HAHA

This email is from ME!

:

Just now I came back from lunch, past by my reception but she is not around and just nice got 1 delivery man (DM) came to deliver stuff so I just sign on behalf.

DM : (speaks some Malay)

Me: HUH???

DM: (speaks Malay again)

Me: Sorry, I don’t understand.

DM: U not Malay???

Me: (super buey song tone) NO

DM: Orh, Philippines?

Me: What???

DM: You from Philippines right???

Me: ( give abit of roll eyes look) NO, I AM A CHINESE

DM: oh, u got Philippines face. Philippines. ( give me that reassurance look that he really think that I am from Philippines)

Me: …………………………… (Looking at my colleague who is beside me and she burst laughing)

Needless to say, the 2 girls laugh like hell when they saw this.

SO ANGRY LOR.

LOL

 

 

 

p/s: What you feed your mind with will rule your life. If you want to feel good, do good.